A former pop star is speaking up for the first time about the suffering she experienced as a result of three painful abortions, claiming on social media that Jesus can “heal the pieces” and grant forgiveness.
Kaya Jones, 38, was recently featured on Students for Life of America’s “Speak Out with Christine Yeargin” podcast. The former Pussycat Doll spoke up about her time in the group and the painful cost of fame, telling Yeargin that she frequently felt like she was in a prostitution ring rather than a girl band.
“It feels like you are a slave to your dream, literally, and the powers that be are holding the keys to the kingdom. You have no access to personal thoughts, space, choices, or decisions,” she explained. “You are an owned commodity…the level of control is like, ‘Who am I?'” She added, “You are put into these positions that are very unscrupulous for any young woman.”
Although her popular girl group sold more than 15 million albums and 40 million singles, Jones describes her experience as “selling a lie.” When you are doing things that are really incorrect and your body is up for grabs, this is where we have to take a hard look at ourselves and for me, I had to take a hard look at myself when I had two young fans in the audience looking at me,” she explained.
“When you see these two little faces and at that moment, I was going through an abortion. I’m losing my child in real-time…these two little girls are looking at me going ‘wow Mom, she’s a Pussycat Doll’,” Jones recalled.
“Nothing in that moment was saying ‘caution, this is a lie’. Nothing was said that and I was a lie at that moment,” she added. “I was tainted, I was destructive, I was destroyed, I was completely enchained and in bondage to the devil…I was not living in my purpose.”
Jones recounts some of her most painful moments as being at the abortion table, despite the false image of happiness she presented and the abuse and control she endured. Her first came when she was 16 years old.
“After the first one, you don’t think you’ve done anything wrong,” Jones explained. “Once you’ve crossed that line, it’s a very slippery slope to continue to cross those lines.” She added, “I didn’t feel that that was murder if you will. I didn’t have any understanding of it. I didn’t speak to my family about it. I didn’t speak to anyone about it. I went and got it done, and I didn’t need anyone’s consent.”
Jones discusses her second abortion while a part of the Pussycat Dolls. “I was told to get rid of it,” she said. “At that point, because I had already gone through an abortion previously, I didn’t think it was that big of a deal,” Jones continued. She publicly mentioned having an abortion in a Twitter thread in 2019.
However, Jones’ recent on-camera testimony has gone viral.
“It is very painful; there is a lot of anger, there is a lot of frustration, there’s a lot of lack of knowledge, there’s a lot of regrets,” she said on the podcast. “Nothing can make that go away other than God Himself when you lay it at His feet and ask for salvation on these issues.”
In response to her story, Jones wrote on Instagram Tuesday, “Give the pain over to Jesus. He will heal the broken pieces. It’s time all men and women lay it down at His feet. He has forgiven you. Now forgive yourself.”
“Unfortunately, people don’t want to talk to young women about it in the way that I feel we should start talking to young women about it,” she said. “Instead of just demonizing it or putting all these regulations, we have to come up with some kind of understanding of the damage.”
She added, “We’re all mothers of dead children if you’ve gone through an abortion. You will regret it your whole life. Even if I become a mother tomorrow, and I’m happily married and all is well, I’m still going to regret the three children I did not have.”
Jones says having children is one of God’s greatest blessings.